Hello Readers, I think their are a few of you at least.
After my jaw surgery I got a job and went back to school. Jan-April were incredibly busy, but enjoyable. I never had a job I enjoyed so much! I sold prom dresses. The position was only seasonal so I had lined up a summer nanny job. That kept me for busy for June and was supposed to go through August. The first week of July the family decided to up their moving away date and put me out of a job on a moments notice.
Our summer vacations were planned to work with the nanny position. So I couldn't even really look for a new job till September. But now, that is being pushed back even further. A health issue I had for near a decade suddenly got much worse last month. Up until this point it wasn't interfering with my life too much. Now it is affecting me daily. Causing me much pain, fatigue, and frustration.
I will be traveling to see a specialist next month and possibly having surgery. I am really torn about this. On the one hand I really do not want to have surgery. It might not even help, but having it is the only to way to find out. On the other hand, if this issue is left alone it will only get worse.
I felt so good for those first few months after my jaw surgery. And truly my jaw is doing great! After so so many years I finally got to actually live life! It was amazing. I thought I was done spending most of my days in bed.
Now I can't help but feel my body is betraying me.
I won't be going back to school this fall and I don't know when I will be able to work again.
I am feeling down.
I was so eager to come back from vacation later this month and look for a job. I wanted to be able to contribute to the expense of Dan's education. I was looking forward to having a bit of spending money for myself. Now I am going to be another expense. This upsets me to the core. I hate being a burden.
Dan takes it all in stride. Not one complaint from him. In fact, without him I would not be getting the care I need. I hate being a bother so much that I don't even like to call my doctors to ask a question. Dan gives me the firm encouragement I need. He insists that I am in no way a burden and proves it with his actions. I am so thankful for him.
Do I overshare on my blog?
Things have to be solved a one at a time. And... maybe it is good that you guys are dealing with these things now, instead of later when you have kids and everything is five times harder. At least now, you can deal with the budget being pinched a little bit, and you both can be flexible.
ReplyDeleteAnd then, LATER, when you have kids, you already have some of these issues fixed! Both of these things are things you have had to deal with for a long time. So hopefully there won't be a whole lot of new things that crop up later on. ;)